Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 25

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis Although I still cry many days… and I believe it will always be so, I go to bed every night with a clear conscience and know she is in safe hands. She is where she […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 24

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis People compare their pain with that of the parents’. But I have news for you. It’s totally different. Yes, they also lost someone important who meant a lot to them, but for a mother and […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 23

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis On the 3rd of February I returned to a place which I thought would never see me again and to which I did not want to go. I forced myself to do that which I […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 22

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis Even though I had written, I was still angry. I was like a woman with a REALLY bad PMS attitude. I did not give a damn if anyone got hurt in the process because I […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 21

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis My emotions rode the gamut and I became angrier each day, more scared and more at my wit’s end because the more questions I asked the less answers I got. I decided that the best […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 20

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis And so I watched everything on Christmas Eve. My husband and I had guests and I greeted them with a smile and tried hard to laugh but it was difficult… But we did it. Presents […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 19

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis I started to blame myself; I could have done more for her… I should have stayed with her so that she was not alone… I should not have gone to sleep, I should have stayed […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 18

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis Juanita du Plessis sings a song “Ek Laat Jou Gaan.” She was Xuané’s favourite singer and this song was also played at her funeral. The words never really made sense to me until the night […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 17

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis FEELINGS Feelings are a strange thing. Emotions are even worse. They catch you at inconvenient times and in strange places… The tiniest thing that you see that reminds you of her can open the floodgates, […]

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Xuané… a Reason to Smile Part 16

Xuané Niewenhuis 17 August 2006 – 24 October 2014 Forever ^8^ Xuané… a Reason to Smile By: Theresa Botha Nieuwenhuis 2014 (continued) My phone went mad but I did not even have the strength to read all the messages never mind still answer them. I understood that people were concerned and wanted to extend their […]

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